WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!

OR AT LEAST IT DOES WHEN WE REFUSE TO LEARN HOW TO AVOID MOVING IN CIRCLES! Post No.25 (A 7 minute read)

A very good afternoon to you ALL. A hot shower has given me a little lift and so I plough into my next post in which I shall review chapter twenty-one of my first book ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN, the title of which is, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!

MY FIRST BOOK!

In this instance, I am referring to our imminent third wave of COVID-19. They were being referred to as waves of infection but in truth, they were the result of each easing of preventative spreading measures. We have lulls in high transmission rates and so perceived that we were winning the fight against the virus!! It was wishful thinking; they were lulls in the tempest!

I was still continuing to be horrified at the ignorance of much of the general public. The will to get back to regular life was greater than the will to prevent the loss of life. We had chased our tails again and the school autumn term was just a few weeks away and with no clear plans in sight. Families had gone on summer holidays and our children were all now becoming positive cases too. It was looking ever worse.

We had a far higher infection rate in September 2020 than in the March of 2020. I could see that we would have to go into lockdown, we could not allow all of these unnecessary deaths, could we? Or could we? Well, yes, we could! We now had twenty-five thousand deaths from a virus that no one seemed to want to take seriously. When there were good, solid guidelines, only half chose to follow them. The VIRTUALLY REAL people could not get in touch with our very REAL REALITY. 

I needed to escape this madness too. What could I do? Where could I go? Back into me, my only salvation. I could see that here in Spain we had no youth interest in the REAL world, that is a REAL worry. I quote myself from this chapter:

There are numerous negative elements to add to the already well-established institutional negatives of sexism, prejudice, inequality and poverty. When our youth have no interest in reality and no longer incubate the desire and will to try and move our reality to a better place, I indeed feel fear!

There is the old, `If you cannot beat them, join them´ philosophy. Then there is the, `I am not going to stand for this´ philosophy and there is the, `This is nothing to do with me´ philosophy. Or you can try the escapism philosophy and create your own world within another world, in which you and your selected members live and collectively forget that there is a REAL world turning out there every day. A REAL world that no longer has an outspoken youth ready to stand up and make changes!

My generation failed to make any changes at the time, but some twenty-five years on, our LOOK became `fashion´???!! I still struggle to understand what `fashion´ really is! Brain dead people who obviously have no ideas of their own and so have to, like the obedient sheep that they are, follow HE who tinkles the bell! The fashion designer picked up on this lot a long time ago and it is surprising how much money a little tinkle of a bell can make for some, is it not?

I am referring to the many earrings and nose studs/rings, which were the choice of my generation. I for my own part well, please do not forget that I had been watching documentaries about all manner of tribes for ten years before I got started on my perforations! I had the pleasure of knowing as a child, our local Bangladeshi doctor´s wife, who wore a beautiful gold flower stud in her nostril!

To have seen this so close up was to have me wanting, as of about seven years of age, to have a nose stud! As for the earrings, the influence there is totally Wodaabe. For those of you who do not know our African indigenous peoples, the Wodaabe are a nomadic people who wander around the Sahara and sub-Saharan nations of West Africa. The Wodaabe women adorn their ears with very large hooped rings!! End of quote.

Then my own quest for earrings began and I talk of the difficulties at school because the rules allowed only one pair of earrings! I had nine earrings!!!! But the boys were wearing earrings too! There were foolish connotations associated with boys wearing earrings and in particular in which ear they were worn!! So, the rules were changed to one pair of earrings, one earring in each ear only and for girls only!! 

When my boy went to secondary school he was allowed to wear two earrings and the girls were wearing more than one pair per ear! I reminded him then of the struggles that we had as teenagers at secondary school, taking out our earrings and nose rings many times a day. Some freedoms we had won but they were not felt until some generations later.

I am sure that most of us are still happily wearing our earrings and nose rings, the only difference is that now others deem you, AAAAAAARGH!!! Dare I say it? FASHIONABLE! You have to live it to know it. I quote myself again:

Today we are living `anything goes´! Maybe we did achieve something after all!! All be it only getting the ball rolling on the freedom to wear more than one pair of earrings at school, for the girls AND the boys!!!! And I remind my son of that. He had a freedom that I had not had at that same age but because we never removed our adornments, well, you have ALL got used to it, have you not? Forty years it took but it was not that big a deal really, was it?

The big deal was our challenging the very foundations that upheld our very own society, was it not? A REAL fear, clever people who can see through their elders and are prepared to blow their cover!! Alarm bells were clanging!! Extinction, annihilation, we must shut them up before any of the sheep start to listen to them and they wake up!! PUNK IS NOT DEAD, BUT THEN NEITHER IS MAN-KIND, YET!!!! End of quote.

What a strange existence it is that we have to live unless we are able to be independent of man-kind in every way!! Do you have many pairs of earrings and nose studs? How many years have you been wearing yours? Would you ever consider taking them out? Does it bother you that others have many earrings or nose studs?

It is my anniversary today and I shall congratulate myself. I started my blog spot one month ago now. I have posted twenty five blogs in those first thirty days. I have had four hundred and four views to my blog and from six different countries so far. One person has made contact with me in that one month and I am very grateful to you Ms. C for taking the time to make contact. TIME, that is what we need and never find. 

In many ways, this marks the point in my book where I began to change direction. I will talk of my reasoning for that in my next post, so until then.................

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WHAT IS THE POINT OF WHAT I AM DOING?

DO YOU KEEP ASKING YOURSELF, "WHY AM I DOING THIS?" Post No.24 (A 14 minute read) 

That is just where I am again today my friends, wondering why I even bother to wake up and get out of bed. What purpose does my day serve to me? None! That is the simple answer! None at all! Beyond getting through another day that is. At the end of each day though, there is the same dissatisfaction as the one before, I have again failed to make contact with a human being.

I try not to become obsessed with that notion. I know, I have always known, that they were few and far between! I know that we are all invisible and have gags on our mouths in principle but I am revealing myself, no, not to all and sundry I admit, that will surely, as I know from long experience, only bring negative sensations. I am an INFJ personality type and I will NOT FEEL ashamed of that. OH, NO!

I AM proud to be how I am. I will stand by me but I am so isolated that I go almost mad each day. I ask myself, am I uncontactable? I am unworthy of contact? I am unworthy of consideration as a real human being? Well, it seems so to me today just as every day that I have known for the last three decades! I write books, I write blog posts, I reach out and yet, none can find anything to say to me. How sad that makes me FEEL, I cannot put into a few words!

Hello, I should maybe have said first!! Hello and good morning to ALL readers wherever you are in the world right now, I can only hope that your panorama today will be a happier one than mine. At the same time, I am so deeply aware that there are billions of people in the world who will be suffering far more than I, today and tomorrow! My suffering is for the most part psychological and emotional, with a small part physical. There are those for whom the onslaught of this trio of trauma, are their daily feed!

I remember the point of all that I do and that is to find the way to help others who suffer far more than I. That is my purpose, that is my reason for continuing to live again today. Not losing sight of the reason for trying again today to find hope and steel my will to keep trying to make contact with fellow human beings. I am writing books which talk about reality, our human reality and man-kind´s reality, which after all have become one and the same.

MY FIRST BOOK!

My book is now available for sale on the Amazon sites. I shall give you the .com links for those who may be interested: ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN Paperback and ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN e-book

It is my objective to find an income through my book sales. I must find a source of income just as we all must. Sadly here in Europe, we cannot live as nomads, we do not have that freedom anymore! We cannot live off fresh air, as we say! I have no support from my known circles and am at a loss. Why? Why has communication become so impossible? Why does no one want to think about anything other than their ownself in the physical sense?

Yes, fair enough, each person who can support themselves independently, is one less burden for a nation. That is what is begging still world wide. Full scale independence! Nations are so dependent on many other nations for foods and materials and within, there are far too many citizens who are living in `DEPENDENCY´, that is to say that they are dependent on others to survive.

Well, if we take into account that until the last fifty years or so, half of the world was maintained in a state of total dependency!? The female population of the world! Not one of us allowed to work for ourselves and only allowed to work as slaves for others. It continues to be the same in many nations. In Europe as females, we have seen education become obligatory and the general assumption is that we will as females, all go and work somewhere. Equal wages though, are still pending for many of us. It is true to say that this is an issue which is currently being addressed here in Spain.

The most debilitating human condition is that of DEPENDENCY, it is CRIPPLING! No power of decision, never able to make any choices, always having to take on the chin what comes your way and even be grateful that this little has come your way. ANARCHY is what is required. The Roman Imperialist structure is sound, it is just the hierarchy that is wrong and ever has been.

This brings me nicely round to chapter nineteen, entitled THE DAYS OF THE CALIPHAS, which I am reviewing today.

In this chapter I look at the reality of our royal houses, our pillars of society and what their purpose is in today´s modern times. I have already begun tackling that question and go on to look at that divine protection that was always afforded our Kings and Lords, the secrecy and relative privacy that they had before cameras and modern day journalists. Oh, no! Not so very long ago, the general public would hear rumours, tittle tattle but would never really know what was or was not, going on up in the big house!

The THEM and US days, which of course, are still ongoing! With the invention of the printing press, news pamphlets and later the news sheet all came into being. Spreading literacy skills meant that more people were able to read and therein find information from beyond their sphere of view. The contrast to the nomadic life-style where you go to the source of information, in our world, the information comes to us! All back to front, man-kind just does exactly the opposite to what we need to do. That is why man-kind exists as a separate race, he has separated HIMSELF from the human race.

It is HE who has tried to defy all that has been learnt throughout the millennia and build HIS world on top of the natural world. HE is wrong every step of the way!! HE wanted to show that HE had evolved and become a better HUMAN being. HE HAD NOT EVOLVED. HE just turned HIS back on our human knowledge and began to build HIS own knowledge, of HIS own world. The man-made world of concrete.

HE removed the forests to replace them with concrete jungles and then taught people how to live in them and how to work in them and later how to breath in them too. Dictatorship was born, MAN-KIND had to be the ultimate leader of the man-made world now did HE not? No one else could ever work out what the heck was going on! No, we have to be taught to live in the man-made world because by pure intuition, you really would get nowhere fast.

This my fellow INFJs, is where the INTUITIVE quality became relegated to unnecessary. It was the OBSERVANT `ability´ that was then taught. WATCH and DO AS I DO! We were no longer supposed to think for ourselves, no, that was not required, not by the multitudes of US. No, the thinking would be done by the TOP DOGS alone. We became the RUMPS of man-kind. It was US who were forced or cajoled, into building HIS concrete jungle. And then given a rule book as to how to live within it!

Those like myself have rebelled against that rule book always and always will. It is all alien to the natural world and the natural order of all things. Man-kind himself is the negative force that destroys planet Earth. Man-kind himself is the killer of human females and males. MAN-KIND sees US as disposable tools, only alive to keep HIS man-made world of DEPENDENCY going!

Fortunately, the cloak of protection is becoming thinner and is occasionally ripped clean off. Public figures are photographed at all times of the day or night, with or without their permission. Their very private life is no longer so very private. Trashy newspapers and glossy magazines have made the privates lives of public figures their selling pitch.

The focus is on what they do in their private lives as opposed to what they do in their public lives. That is what sells, sad to say. Who is wearing what and who designed it? The point or the purpose of what they are doing has become irrelevant. What are they doing in reality? What is their function day to day? I believe that one of the first decisions must be to scale down the family fortunes and the displays of opulence. The financial frivolity is dire, whilst billions of people have no clean drinking water. It is obscene!

Our former King Juan Carlos I of Spain has just disappeared into exile. His own son had withdrawn his royal cloak of protection and rather than face HIS baying subjects and give some explanations to US for HIS shambolic behaviour, he hops on a plane without leaving a forwarding address!!! This I was writing down in my book even as it was happening! It was bizarre. Rather than show HIS face, HE disappeared into exile. HE does not want to be exposed as a lying, cheating, double-dealing miscreant, the same as most other Kings and male leaders, now does HE?

The wife of course, Queen Sofía and the rest of the family, have to carry HIS burden of shame without HIM. Typical male!! That cloak of divine male protection has made this modern world possible. Every male aspires to be wealthy and have power with that wealth to dominate others. To give himself a sense of importance. It is such sad OBSERVANT behaviour, just copy the one before you! 

All of our royal families and noble families, the great land owners and property owners of every country, all of them, need to come down in their self-glory of their own magnificence. If we were all to aspire to the same style of living as the optimum life-style for happiness, we would surely have far more criminals than we do already. Fortunately many of US can see that happiness comes from having peace of mind, a sense of stability, a sense of purpose, a sense of achievement and of course, a sense of independence.

I am actually wandering into the next chapter of my first book ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN, which is entitled KEEPING UP WITH THE ROYALS. Yes, I had thought to cover these two chapters in one post but actually I think that I can see that, for me, if I just talk that will sound better. Later you can read my words in your own time, in your own space, from your own copy of my book.

Continuing with the aspirations of US, the working class and our quest for land ownership and property ownership and moving into independence. Looking to invest our wealth (where we have any) in our long term security and maybe move up in the world. The ghettos of every large town and city are the visual evidence of man-kind´s failings to care for any other than those who are part of HIS plan! These become their own landlords and control streets and neighbourhoods, for want of their own living and working spaces.

The public highways become their work place and their business is whatever others need their businesses to be. Their real world existing within another real world that they have no access to or no participation in. Gang warfare in our public streets! Killing on our city streets is a daily reality. Our man-kind here in Europe do not need permission to buy guns, oh, no! They will kill with knives or even with bare hands! Man-kind is death!

Wealth and how you use it! Well, far too many have been able to hoard immense sums of money but it has always been at the expense of others. It is time for some of these immense fortunes to be released for public reform projects in rural areas in particular. As part of their coming down in scale, as part of their redemption, as part of their HUMANIZATION.

Were they ever happy really, trapped in their wealth, fearing always that others would sooner kill them than kiss them, to get to their fortune. Thereby having to surround themselves by guards, even sleep must come with difficulty under these circumstances. They must come down voluntarily, not by force but their foundations are becoming undermined by each new generation of heirs to the fortune. More money going out than coming in!!

There is only so long that you can exist like that. Change positively or risk losing all that was your inheritance! Then maybe we could view them in a slightly more favourable light!

Do you feel an overwhelming need to be very wealthy? I know that I want my wealth to work with. I cannot understand the process of amassing great wealth, accumulating great wealth, if not to use it for something of great benefit. If that was done progressively, or if that had been done progressively through time, then surely we would not be as we are today, a world with more than three billion people whose lives hang by a thread. Tomorrow may or may not come to be for them!!

Like COVID-19 had gone away???? Next chapter which is chapter twenty-one, is entitled WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND and I check back to our ongoing COVID-19 crisis. Getting so very frustrated with our situation, my mind begins to ramble and I find myself going back down my teenage memory lane. So until then...........

I thank you as always for reading. Please FEEL welcome to comment or make communication. I would so love to hear from an INTROVERTED, INTUITIVE, FEELING, JUDGING person like myself, be they ASSERTIVE or TURBULENT at this moment in time. I feel that communication is where the possibility to stay in the ASSERTIVE lies. The TURBULENT element is so linked to the isolatory, invisible, gagged status that we all accept as ours. SPEAK UP, WE NEED TO BE HEARD. WE HAVE TO LEAD OURSELVES!!!

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COVID-19 TSUNAMI!!!

THE SECOND WAVE OF COVID-19 OR THE AFTERSHOCKS OF THE FIRST WAVE? Post No.23 (A 13 minute read) 

I quote myself from chapter eighteen of my first book ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN, which can be accessed with these links to Amazon.com: ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN Paperback and ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN e-book entitled SECOND WAVE OR AFTERSHOCKS OF THE FIRST?

Distressingly, the backdrop to my writing continues to be COVID-19. It is a new sensation I think for many of us. Some are fearful, some are careful and some just do not seem to have got the message as yet! You know, there is a tremendously infectious virus going all around the world right now! And just about as far as our travel plans will take us!

As our television channels have been dedicated to informing us on all the day´s updates regarding the virus, I find it so disappointing to see the behaviour of so many people. The "I am alright Jack!" attitude! Add to that, far too many mixed messages and quite frankly, our population is continuing the spread of this virus because they are being allowed to!

When it came to starting to get back to work in mid-June 2020, bars, restaurants and nightclubs, were considered top priority! That tells me so much about the Spanish people and their mentality. Whilst they can go to the beach, have a beer in a bar, eat out in a restaurant and for the younger ones, large get-togethers with their vibes, you have got most of Spain content!! Take any one of those elements out of their lives and they do feel so hard done by!!

It says so much about their whole life-style, which is based around eating, drinking, listening to music and sunbathing at the beach! What is wrong with that, maybe you ask? There is not much wrong with that, is there! It sounds like holiday material for all those who do not get the same long months of sunshine every year that southern Spain does. Throw in the cheap tobacco and alcohol and well, no one really complains!!

I think the Spanish government´s policy has ever been, give them what they want at a cheap price and that will keep them quiet! And for better or worse, it is a policy that by and large works. It is really only the educated portion of the nation, which maybe aspires to more. The average Spaniard on the other hand, is content to be able to pay their bills and the rest of their monies will be spent on the previously mentioned items.

So when we went into lockdown, the tobacco shops were of course, along with chemists and food shops, the only shops open for a full twelve weeks. There are ever two sides to every coin and whilst many millions have been without an income for twelve weeks, there are others who have not been able to SPEND for twelve weeks either!! I really could not see these as top priorities. We could go to a bar or restaurant as of mid-June, but still not the local doctor!!  End of quote.

Hello and good morning to you ALL, wherever in the world you may be reading from today. I have mentioned the interest that is coming my way and I note that someone in South Korea has given my blog a read, thank you so much and also, my birth nation of Gran Bretaña has some who have looked my way. I just need an African reader and I can then say that I have become visible in Europe, Asia, the Americas and AFRICA. So readers in Africa and Oceania, are still to look my way.

I was not born with a great deal of patience. I am working much on my patience levels even now, right this moment. I really do not like typing. It is so formal and so impersonal, that it amazes me that typing has become our modern substitute for talking. I had a call on my mobile yesterday whilst walking in the street. My caller said that they would call at a better moment. "That is ok. I can walk and talk at the same time. That presents no challenge to me at all!" Now if I had to be typing and walking, that would be a challenge! One that I would not take on. I would simply stop walking, which would annoy me straight off, sit down somewhere and type. On finishing, I would get walking again!

But I write as I talk, I use paper as ears. My words are as breadcrumbs, that I am spreading behind me, leaving my own trail for others to follow, as I cannot be digging this same groove much longer. I need to move forward and for now, I am working over old ground! Trying to do now, the preparation for releasing a book. So, doing everything the wrong way but hey! SLOW IN LEARNING, yes, I am slow to learn the man-made methods of non-speaking communication!

Following on from my quote above, just to prove my point!! Yesterday´s news report told us of our reduction of spending in food shops as the prices of all aliments steadily increase. A reporter on the ground, surveyed a cross section of the general public and found unanimously the same decision making. Yes, they were spending everless on food from supermarkets but that was so that they would not have to sacrifice their beers and bars!!!!

They will accept poor diets but will not renounce the outings to bars and restaurants!!! This viral pandemic has helped me to see actually just how shallow-minded so much of our western population really are. My own I know only too well, part of the reason that I left was their shallow-mindedness! It is what I dislike in the Spaniards too. A total lack of aspirations but that has been enforced by decades of dictatorial leadership. Let them eat, drink and be merry! Let the men have their `paid for kicks´ at local `Knocking Shops´, which are illegal but none the less, were able to stay open during our lockdown period!

AN ESSENTIAL SERVICE, they were deemed! Well, absurd or what? Social distancing and mask wearing! What was it, two metres distance from anyone? Well, how many males do you know with a two metre plus penis?? The essentials???!!! It was only a chain of COVID-19 that was traced back to a brothel, that led us as the general public, to actually discover that in all of these establishments they were still getting together and drinking alcohol and `reducing social distancing to an extreme´, as per normal!!

"IT IS OK AS LONG AS YOU KEEP THE MASKS ON AND YOUR TWO METRE DISTANCE!" It insults the mentality of those like myself! The hypocrisy is mind blowing! But these are of course, businesses and whilst the majority are working illegally, that is they and many millions more. I quote myself again from this chapter:

The news announced last night that one million and seventy-four thousand people in Spain, lost their jobs in the first quarter of the year (2020), but those added to the receivers of unemployment benefit, were just fifty-five thousand! Unemployment benefit is not available for everyone! It is only available to those who meet the criteria, which is fair enough maybe! But sadly, the reality is temporary contracts for some 60% of the population. These seem to be pre-planned to ensure that very few people are able to add up sufficient time worked over a consecutive period of time, to be able to claim any unemployment support.

There are very few by percentage, in this town where I live, who are able to work for twelve months of the year. So much for tourism and it being one of our major sources of income and employment! We are able to see here very vividly, even as we are living it, that this town without all of the extra holiday home owners and the holiday maker´s monies, we are living exclusively off all of our pensioners, both national and international, as well as the civil servants, who were of course, covered by the government´s financial help!  End of quote.

We were moving to six million unemployed, just a couple of good working months left of the summer season out of which we would all have to survive the winter, where as I could see it, we would inevitably have to lockdown again! It really was going to be a winter of discontent! We had just notched up twenty-one thousand deaths of senior citizens in our care homes. We had a quarter of a million known cases and at long last, TEST and TRACE became active.

Anyone who could, was asked to work from home. That surely must have been bliss for many. My own sister was one of the few who suffered no interruption in their working schedule beyond the omission of the journey to and from her work place each day! It has suited many, I am sure. I know that as I sit here right now, WORKING, I wonder if I would even be able to FEEL the same way if I were with other people and their noise!!

Whilst millions of us were worrying about our survival beyond the coming winter, there were just as many others who just HAD to have a holiday! I really could not believe this! We here, needed tourists to come, we did and so a testing and fourteen day quarantine was introduced for foreign travel. The COVID-19 tide was now going to be lashing our shores indefinitely, this is where we gave up the fight with COVID-19. I quote myself again:

The student collective has been home now since February and whilst schools and universities were able to organize a timetable of education from home, it is now just six weeks before the autumn term begins. There are still no clear plans for the new term! So much hangs in the balance right now. It is crucial to get this second round sized right down and very quickly! A third round going around all of our educational centres in autumn, will probably be a reality if we start term on an iffy basis! 

Ideally, we need it all wrapped up and gone from our midst before winter comes upon us and the usual multitudes go down with the common cold virus! This is indeed one of the medical professions´ great fears. These two viruses running simultaneously. How many of our vulnerable senior citizens could cope with both, I cannot know! The new year will see how many of us survive to see it! Is there any chance of that if we have got our doors open to the world to come and go as they please? We do need them to come, we do! It is just about applying common sense and rigidly following guidelines, which are to the benefit of all the general public´s health and safety!

Down here, the beggars that we are, we are just stoically going through our respective day to day, dreading mass infection in our midst but knowing that, if we do not take the risk, there will be no food for winter and certainly no heat!!  End of quote.

Sadly, it was a very lean and cold winter for me and yes, I did title a chapter `Winter of Discontent´ but that is still to come. It was the precarity of more than fifty percent of the population here that determined our actions. Poverty was rife, poverty is now pandemic! Robbery was a desperate act, robbery is now a profession! We had, far too many of us, no other option than to get out hustling again.

11TH CENTURY NORWICH CASTLE, BUILT BY THE ORDER OF KING WILLIAM THE FIRST (THE CONQUEROR OF ENGLAND)

I was happy to hear that our King Felipe VI had cut any governmental payments to his father, the disgraced former King Juan Carlos I. In times of such great poverty, lavish wealth is nothing short of insulting. King Felipe and Queen Letizia did a lot of travelling around the country at this time, which was just what was needed. I quote myself again:

Is he (King Felipe VI) beginning to get in touch with the reality of his subject´s true reality? He has been touring around each and every region of the country with Queen Letizia and they have been well received on the whole. But there is a strong republican feeling growing. We have I believe, as the citizens of a country, at least the right to question all of our institutions and get satisfactory answers. It will be the younger generations who will decide no doubt, as to whether they stay or go as institutions.

I can still see a usage for all of our Califas and their families. Though the view from the towers of the castle enables you to see for many miles around, maybe the royal domains have become larger and larger and mayhap, there is only so much that you can see from one standing view point!! So, if the Califa is really to know for himself what is really going on in his kingdom, does he not need to come down from his tower and tread on the same ground that all, or most of his subjects, tread every day, there are no towers for them?

`TO GO ABROAD´, was how it was described in times gone by. Our olden day Kings and Queens would go out on `PROGRESS´, meet all their subjects and check out all their domains. King Felipe VI and Queen Letizia do well to, `GO ABROAD´, at this moment in time, because if his subjects and his nation were not in a bad way before, they sure are now and their majesties ought to see it and hear about it for themselves. It might help them do some soul searching and help guide their decisions for the future of all of us! End of quote. 

What was your situation around this time, mid-June 2020, where you live? How were your fellow country men and women behaving? Where were their priorities placed? Have you visited Spain before? What part did your Kings and Queens play (if you have them) in your country at this moment in time?

I thank you for reading my words as always. Please FEEL welcome to comment in the comment box below, I would so love to hear from you. You can also make contact by e-mail via the contact box in the right-hand panel where there is also a follow tab. Knowing that I have readers looking my way from far afield really does give me a good, positive FEEL. I would so like to hear from you ALL. 

In my next blog, I will continue with our Califas and look at the part they HAVE played already in shaping our lives and institutions. So, please check back and continue following my trains of thought. Until then, happy learning INFJs around the world!

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WHY IS MAN-KIND SO SLOW IN LEARNING?

HUMAN WEAKNESSES AND SLOW IN LEARNING, THAT IS MAN-KIND ALL OVER! Post No.22 (A 12 minute read) 

It is not exclusively man-kind who suffer from weakness or indeed exclusively man-kind who are slow in learning but as man-kind is always our leader and guide, we ALL suffer as human-kind and man-kind, from HIS weak leadership and the horribly slow speed at which HE is prepared to learn!

Chapter fifteen of my first book ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN is entitled HUMAN WEAKNESSES. We were into the month of June 2020 and had just clocked up fifteen thousand deaths of senior citizens in care homes, both private and state run!!! The elderly were ever the most vulnerable but were never given the priority status that they deserved, were they? 

There were though, those few care residences who took control of their dominions and the staff all went into lockdown with the residents. Of course, there were no deaths or infections in these CARE homes!! Their staff made independent decisions and they made the right decisions for those fortunate vulnerable seniors. 

In this chapter I talk of the standard of care which is given and how it varies so dramatically depending on the budgets and who is in charge. Needless to say, my team would be running their own care homes for senior citizens and giving them the best care possible of course!

MAN-KIND NEVER THINKS TO CLEAR UP HIS TRACKS! I SEE MANY OF HIS FORMER TRACKS WHERE I LIVE!

Chapter sixteen, SLOW IN LEARNING! Well, we had just come full circle on ourselves and all of our time spent in lockdown had in effect served little purpose as we had not detected all of the asymptomatic cases. TEST, TEST, TEST! That had been the advice from the World Health Organization right at the onset of the pandemic. We were only testing people with symptoms here! And so, our move into our `new normality´, with all of us allowed to move around freely again, the virus then began to travel further than it had been able to thus far!

Had we really learnt nothing during those three months? I had! I could see this coming. I quote myself from chapter sixteen:

Having had another bout of inactivity which has been stimulated largely by such an overwhelming sense of impotency and frustration at our current situation, I am trying once again to try and centre my thoughts on my future. This whole coronavirus pandemic has become an authentic distraction and obstacle too, which has a depressing effect psychologically speaking! I try to think of other things but just cannot get away from going over and over what is male behaviour and in particular, the males in governments behaviour!!

I could ever see that males did not make good decision makers, they are always too dependent on what other males will think of them. I am not overly afraid of the virus for my own self but I am afraid of what life has become for us all as world citizens because of a handful of ego-trippers and foolish me, myself, I types. They, the heads and shoulders of each nation´s pantomime horse and the whole nation under the cloth being dragged one way or another!

So, if you are not under your partner´s cloth of disguise, you are under your government´s! It is twice as frustrating as females as you can imagine! It is all darkness for us, is it not? Is it any wonder that we can enjoy the simple pleasures in life? Like sweet smelling soap or hand cream, for example! Or a chunk of freshly baked bread or a slice of sponge cake? In truth, these are some of the only high points in life for many of us, sad as that may seem! End of quote.

Oh, how I get to grips with our male sexual deficiencies in this chapter. The male attitude towards women sexually speaking, the typical one-sided approach. Females being seen as male sexual tools, only there for male sexual usage, when he wants to let off steam. Unwanted pregnancies formerly led to marriage, that man-made trap for women!! Contraceptive tools have revolutionized the female sexual behaviour patterns totally.

But there is still a large over-lapping of freedoms and the education with which to benefit from them. As a world, we have just become eight billion people. The nations of the southern hemisphere are those with the dramatically high birth rates. The wide spread usage of contraception is a must world wide. We must sexually educate our male population and educate our women with regards to their maternity, as well as sexual education.

In Europe as I have already said, women are marrying in much lower numbers and child birth numbers are accompanying that reduction. That is positive news, it is. We are over populated right now. The population growth rate must be slowed all over the world. CONTRACEPTION, we need to eliminate the status of DIVINE RIGHT for the male seed!! 

We are though, as European females, leaving our males largely redundant! We now only need males for good company and good sexual sensations, nothing else! If he cannot provide you with those two elements on a regular basis, then what are you wasting your time for? 

This is a dense, dense chapter it is! The male deficiencies and how unhappy they make life for us women! All the reasons why women want out of their relationships. The reasons why women keep looking and keep hoping that one day, they will find a man who can give good company and good sexual sensations too, who is not a violent narcissist! And you will not find too many of those types in Europe, no you will not! 

Females, it is all about females taking the lead and giving the right guidelines to follow. But does man-kind want to learn from US. You bet he does not? And therein HIS continued ignorance of anything of import. HIS `black and white´ world, with only the grey of HIS concrete jungles to break up the monotony. HE is the dark shadow that hangs over the whole world and all that is righteous and worthy of life! 

Jumping on to chapter seventeen entitled `IT IS GOING TO NEED SOME BRAVE MEN´. Well, moving along with the useless male leader theme, I look at the possibility of our leadership actually being honest and worthwhile! Quite a new line of thinking in truth! They have been one after the other, like a lineage, a dynasty, the dynasty of man-kind! HE who would gather all unto HIMSELF and a few cronies who support HIM. 

I talk about opening up the proverbial `Pandora´s Box´ and letting out the secrets of all our former politicians and kings. Our former King Juan Carlos I of Spain, had found himself under the spotlight and for no positive reason, sad to say. The ugly truth of this man was now coming into the public domain. I quote myself from this chapter seventeen:

Spain is a Kingdom and as such, we do have our own Califa in situe! King Felipe the sixth, now sits on the throne as King of Spain. When King Felipe renounced his inheritance from his father recently, he did indeed take a big, bold step. His father King Juan Carlos the first, has had time called on his skullduggery and the whistle blowers are lining up to add their contributions.

This has been coming for a very long time, I am afraid to say. But owing to a very thick protective Royal cloak, the cheek has been turned and the eye has gotten the habit of being selectively blind. Enough is enough! Well, it seems like King Felipe thinks so too! Why should he carry his father´s burden of shame? For no reason other than being so totally ashamed and horrified at his father´s actions, that he will continue to play the cover up game! King Felipe has, by renouncing his father´s fortune or at least part of his father´s fortune (that which cannot be accounted for), withdrawn HIS protection as the reigning King!

His father is now going to have to face HIS ugly truths and of course, the embarrassment and shame that he and his family will FEEL, will be tremendously uncomfortable for some time but they will find that it was a burden of someone else´s guilt that they carry no longer. They have handed over the responsibility to HE who committed the dodgy acts, in this case, his own FATHER! No, it cannot feel good, can it? But if your very inheritance is built on dirty money and you either know or suspect that, well you have got two choices, have you not? Either keep it quiet or come clean! End of quote.

If we are to have great leaders sat above us all, must their behaviour not be exemplary? Should they themselves not be our ideal role models? That is the principle of course, but the reality has always been so very different, has it not? All of our still existing Kings and Queens are being challenged ever harder to substantiate their reason for sitting aloft! I quote myself again from this chapter:

These are the pillars of our society!! What a scandal, hey? Like we never suspected this kind of behaviour from them? We have always suspected it even if we have never known it! The pillars of our great big Roman Catholic Imperialist Empire of 2020! I will say the truth here because I always had the idea that we would have to dig right down to the roots of the problem, that is to say, right down to the foundations. Having seen recently an absolutely marvellous documental series about Roman architecture and engineering, I am having a re-think!

It was magnificently put together! As I have said before, many of our modern Spanish towns and cities do lie on the very same foundations that the Roman conquerors and colonizers laid down. Solid foundations indeed to have withstood so many centuries of clanking money bags!! These were some of the most acute, agile brains that I think man-kind has known to date. The designs, the strategies, the planning, all of it was done on theory and my word, they were masters of calculation!

Catholicism came to Spain with the Romans too and so males conduct and more acutely females conduct, became shaped by law! Local males probably enjoyed this step up as you could imagine and from there on, ever trying to get his feet a rung further up on that ladder, so that he would have more freedoms to break the Roman catholic laws and get away with it! Being wholly supportive of your Roman governors would not go amiss, would it? End of quote.

I continue to look at the part that these large land and property owners could play in the overall picture of regrowth! It is they who have the power of decision, coupled with the financial power too. These pillars of our society should be leading the way forward for all of us, by their own example. If all males strive to be as the King, then that may be fine if the King is a fine man! If the King and government, the nobles and the very wealthy, are all above the law, there is our fine example of how to be and how to live!

All of these institutions need to clean up and size down in expenditures. They all need to come down a good few rungs on the ladder of wealth and importance too. But anarchy does require an alternative structure being built for each nation even as we take down the ancient Roman Empire. For that to happen, we need females leading the way with honesty, equality and integrity. 

It is beginning to happen here and we have a good female as Queen, who has her eldest daughter as the heir to the Spanish throne. The tides are indeed beginning to turn in the favour of the female again!!!

How do you feel about monarchy? Do you have a monarchy in your country? How are they doing? Can you see a clear purpose for maintaining our monarchs? 

Thank you for reading. Please FEEL welcome to comment below or make communication via the contact box in the right-hand panel.Click the follow tab and get on board my Trains of Thought. I am very happy to find that I have had readers coming to read my trains of thought from India now too. Thank you so very much for looking my way. I do so hope that you will continue to find interest in my writings. 

I also have interest from the USA as I have mentioned and the Philippines too. Oh, that really does feel wonderful. I imagine my book being read by INFJs all over the world. Here in Spain where I am living, I also have some readers too. So, for the moment my friends, we are scattered but I am reaching out to you all.

I look forward to making contact with you in your due course. Until the next post, happy learning! And, if you would like to buy my book, you can find it on Amazon with these links: ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN Paperback and ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN e-book

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SHOULD I STAY OR OUGHT I TO GO?

SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO? THAT IS THE QUESTION THAT ALL OUR LEADERS SHOULD BE ASKING THEMSELVES! Post No.21 (A 10 minute read) 

"Should I stay or should I go?" The Clash, one of my `Young Punk´ bands, wrote a song with that title, it was off their album titled `COMBAT ROCK´. Great album by a great band, part of my collection of vinyl albums but safely stored at home in Gran Bretaña! Though in their case, they were asking the question of their girl! "Do not play around with me! Be straight with me! Do you want me or don´t you?" Not words quoted from the song to avoid copyright issues, but that was the jist of their asking, "Should I stay or should I go?

Good Morning to you readers around the world, moving on with my own auto review of my first book titled `ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN´. This book can be found on the majority of the Amazon stores. Here are links to the .com store for you: ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN Paperback and ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN e-book  Onto chapter fourteen today which is of course entitled, `SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO?´

MY FIRST BOOK!!

By this stage of my writing, we had moved into June of 2020 and were into our `Phase 2´ stage of coming out of confinement here where I live. At that point in time, we had just four cases of COVID-19 listed for our town. I now know that to be absolutely untrue but much less was known at that time. Good old retrospect, hence why we need to be permanently looking back and assessing ourselves!

We could now move around freely, observing social distancing and wearing a facial mask. We could now go out of our municiple boundaries for the first time in twelve weeks. Our local doctor´s clinics had been closed for twelve weeks as well and the back log of unattended patients was growing alarmingly. The shortages of staff are an ongoing problem for our underfunded health service here but with so many health workers off sick with COVID-19 themselves, all the deficits were so vividly exposed.

What I FELT that I could see clearly though, was that the general level of health amongst this population in particular, was very poor. Living in a rural area as I do, the overall pollution levels are relatively low by comparison to a heavily trafficked city. That is one of the advantages of rural living of course! Passive smoking has been verified as a reality which led to a ban on smoking in public places. Something that I wholly support. 

The habit of tobacco smoking does seriously debilitate your overall health, it does! The smokers and those with compromised respiratory systems, were finding themselves spending time in intensive care units. Many of them, never came out again alive!! The COVID-19 virus attacked the respiratory system very hard. No, we did not know of the harmful effects on the human body from inhaling tobacco smoke until the last century. Fair enough!

I quote myself from this chapter: 

Prices of tobacco have jumped up in bigger and smaller leaps with the view I guess, to pricing people out of smoking. Also we are beginning to remove the glamour factor that was formerly associated with smoking, both by males and females, in the hope that ever less young people will start smoking in the first place. Such a shame that we had to have such a harmful product become part of our life-style, it is difficult now to see a world without cigarettes and cigarette smokers!

But the native North American Indians were not cigarette smokers, they were not smoking tobacco at the rate of a packet a day as modern smokers do! They smoked their leaf in pipes which were shared and passed around. Anyone who has delved into the culture of these peoples, will have heard of the `Pipe of Peace´. The `Pipe of Peace´ to my mind, is a white man´s interpretation!

I in my wanderings, have smoked many pipes with many people and in many places! Though sadly not as yet with any native American Indians!! That is not to sa that I will not do so, whilst there is still more to learn? I have always read the gesture of pipe loading and sharing more as a gesture of courteousy and welcome. All ethnic peoples have smoked one leaf or another. Which leaf? That depended totally on what grew naturally where they were moving around! Rather in the same way that we offer a guest a cup of tea or coffee when they come round. End of quote.

Well, it was writing of the native American Indians and pipe smoking, that this memory was brought to mind and I share with you another extract from this chapter. Beloved Tuareg!!! I quote myself again:

Fair enough, when tobacco first began to make its way into our societies, we knew very little about the tobacco plant and its potentially harmful effects. The first explorers to use tobacco would have done wisely in finding out from the local people, how THEY used this leaf? IN MODERATION, they would have been told!!

Cowboy and Indian films have flooded our big screens over the decades and with each new take on the Wild West, we display the realities of what was in effect, the virtual annihilation of a whole nation of peoples! The thanks given for introducing these explorers into their lands and trusting them as though these peoples had the same honourable mind set!!

I was travelling in southern Algeria many years back and was absolutely stunned to find a cinema in this small Saharan town. And so it came to pass and I will not go into anymore detail there, that I met the owner of the said cinema and he informed me that he had to head down there and open up for the afternoon matinee! I was amused! "What is showing this afternoon?" I asked with great curiosity as to what they might have on. "Oh, I have got a John Wayne this week!" He said with some pride! John Wayne, cowboys and indians down Sahara way??? UUUHM! So I go off to check this all out!

On approaching the building, I see a queque of about fifty robed and head dressed Tuaregs, WHAT, Saharan nomads lining up for John Wayne??? Omar Sharif, what is happening? So, the crowd excitedly pay their few coins for the entrance fee and joyfully buy themselves one of those old style glass bottles of fizzy drink and a paper cone of peanuts (natural of course) and file orderly into the lounge to take their seats. It was packed out and the film began!

Well, I stood at the back watching the almost juvenile delight of these beautiful men, aged between twenty and sixty. They clapped at times, they cheered at times, they stood up and shouted at the screen at times! They certainly got very into the film as you can hear! I was obviously intrigued to know what these men thought of all this tomato ketchup, Hollywood hero massacre story and so tried to give Mr. Cinema the slip, as he had to get all organized for the evening session. If "I would like to come back later?" "What, two doses of John Wayne in one day? No thanks, I have got some Tuareg to investigate!" 

Back in my childhood days, I had seen many of these kinds of films. I had read any number of cowboy and indian books and stories. Never have I changed my thoughts on the injustices caused. Consequently, I went for the other side of the story. How was it through the eyes of the indigenous peoples? Quite different of course! So, it was with joy that I sat and ate and answered many, many questions regarding America and the Red Indian peoples.

The Tuareg could see similarities with themselves and their life-styles. They could see that these native Indians in America, lived just as they did, in tune with nature, never looking to change any plant or area by cultivation or settling. They were all nomads alike, taking just what they needed and no more! Always moving and sensibly never exhausting lands and natural supplies. Never demanding more of a land than it would naturally give! End of quote.

At this stage of my writing, I had still not thought to write of my own life and travels. It was the trigger process, as I call it. Words are as triggers to me. Even as I thought along other trains of thought, an unlooked for trigger would then instigate a change in direction of my trains of thought. I FELT as though I had the choice to follow along with them or stick with the initial train of thought and be more organized. I have found that the joy of writing is in following those trains of thought. The trigger was pulled for some good reason, follow up that train of thought and you will see its relevance to the moment!

I follow on with the tea and coffee trail too in this chapter. The `in moderation´ applies to these as well. I explore how they have become such integral parts of our life style even as tobacco has. Right down to today´s devaluation of these products, which lower in quality along with their price. The CONNOISSEUR factor has been lost, has it not? Run of the mill, taken for granted. These used to be luxury goods and will, I believe, become so again!

The shelves of our shops are laden with so many artificial food products, why is that? We have health and nutrition experts now! They tell us of the dangers to our health and so why are these products made in the first place? Americanization, our younger generations have become connoisseurs of JUNK FOOD! If your only `FOOD FOR THOUGHT´ (the title of a UB40 song off their `SIGNING OFF´ album), is JUNK FOOD, then maybe it is no surprise that the thought patterns are so starved of nutrition!!!

My first book offers so much FOOD FOR THOUGHT but healthy FOOD FOR THOUGHT! 

Having seen the COVID-19 infected in the USA just top the two million mark, well, the then President Donald Trump, HE who said, "Relax, it is all under control", it does not look like being under control to me. The mixed messages, the delayed actions, the bad decisions, the accumulation of our respective leaders´ choices as our leaders, are showing themselves now in death tolls. Many should ask themselves, should I stay or should I go? How many will go willingly though?

Was your leader guilty of slow decision making during the initial stages of the COVID-19 pandemic? What has the death toll been in your country? How much of that loss of life was down to leadership decisions? How much of that loss of life could have been avoided? What part did money play in the decision making too?

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NARCISSISTS IN THE MAKING!!!!

ALL OF OUR POOR LOST CHILDREN! HOW MANY BECOME NARCISSISTS? Post No.20 (A 12 minute read) 

Hello and good morning to all readers who may have turned my way for a moment, wherever they may be reading from. I have noticed that I have some readers from the USA, WOW!! I would so like to hear your comments! Today also, I see that a reader from the Philippines has looked my way. You are very welcome indeed. I so wish to be able to communicate with other like minded people and I understand that we have to go slowly and steadily feeling our way towards another person as INFJ types!

That is why I have written my books in a way, I am beginning to reveal myself, so that others can FEEL INTUITIVELY through my own words, who I am!

Today I write about narcissism and how it really does affect most of us directly or indirectly. Chapter thirteen of my book is entitled THE LOST CHILDREN. In this chapter I am discussing the myriad of consequences that arise because of a child being without their own mother and father and having a stable home in which to develop and good, solid examples to follow.

TRANQUILITY CAN ALWAYS BE FOUND WANDERING WITH NATURE! ONE OF MY NEARBY TREKKING ZONES!

Earlier in my book I wrote of my own childhood and the stability and opportunities that I was afforded. I was one of the fortunate children in this world. NARCISSISM roots from two sources typically. The first is the living example of a NARCISSIST in your own home. Your father, or mother! His/her own behaviour being your guide as to how to be a MAN/WOMAN and how to be a HUSBAND/WIFE. For a female child watching her mother being sorely abused and mistreated, she will have known of her mother´s pain and distress. Her own mother will have been warning her to be careful in her choice of partner.

Trying to break this ancient cycle of male domination, which is maintained via systematic, violent  behaviour and insulting, derisory, degrading language. A male child on the other hand, will see the benefits to himself as a future husband, of behaving in the same way. The cyclical behaviour of the `BRED and FED´ NARCISSIST continues via the male line. Until a male decides to break away from his own teacher´s rules and makes his own rules for himself, based on what he FEELS, this hideous cycle will continue!

An educated father will be trying to guide his son on a path to independency and not thinking of marriage and fatherhood at a young age. Raising the aspirations of the average male! Sadly though, low educated fathers can only teach what they know and where did they learn that if not from their father´s! All poor teaching, the cycles need to be broken!

This really is about females making much more serious decisions about who is the father of her child. You may have a boy child or you may have a girl child, that we do not decide ourselves as such! But if you were to have a boy, would it not be ideal to have a  partner (the child´s father), who was himself a good example to follow! If the male that you have your children with is a low-life and his family are also in that niche, then no, they will not be the ideal examples for your children to follow.

Aspirations of being independent and living without stress and strife, living with a peace of mind and some stability. One must have some real respect for themselves and that comes from being independent and having a sense of self-achievement. Obviously key elements that are missing from an orphan girl or boy´s life! These are my lost children! The trauma based NARCISSIST is such a sad one. I have known quite a few, what tortured souls they all are!

I understand them very keenly. Rejection is one of the most difficult sensations that we have to cope with as human beings. The rejection of your own parents is one of the most damaging traumas of all. No base picture to place yourself in. Snap shots of what, you do not really know? Confused young minds with no good guides anywhere! The most vulnerable in our society today. Passed from one state care institution to another, so often sexually abused by those who are supposedly caring for them. The Groomers and Abusers are their guides to adult behaviour!! Learning the techniques of trickery and acting the nice guy when they need to! Then get violent and aggressive if they do not get their way!

They long to trust but are afraid of their own truth being said out loud. It holds so much shame for them that they do not even want to admit their own truth of their life to date. It is what keeps them ever in the same day, going round and round in circles, over the same old ground each and every day. No one taught them how to move straight ahead, did they? I would set up shared family homes as I write in this chapter, I quote myself:

In our shared family homes, we would need a vetting process that was very strict to ensure that no one had unmonitored access to any child that was not their own. Psychology teams could pay regular visits to the family homes to keep an external contact, that kind of ever ready to listen pair of ears and of course, those external eyes that can see for themselves, whether a child is happy or unhappy, whether they are troubled or relaxed, whether they are secure or insecure, whether they are healing and settling, or if their wounds continue to run deep and painful and so need more attentive caring and nurturing.

Those of us who have been parents, will all know just what it costs to have a child from birth up to their independence. It costs a lot between one thing and another, does it not? It is not just the basics like clothes, shoes, school uniform and sports kit and the bath water and the electricity, is it? It is all the games and toys over the years, all the reading books, colouring books and crayons. Bicycles and skates, fancy-dress costumes, birthday parties and presents, right down to pocket money!

Then in the teen years, money for clubs and sporting/musical lessons or other activities of their choice and the bus fare to get there and back! The list goes on and on! The school ski holiday, the French exchange, college lodgings, university fees and a few clothes for the weekend, I reckon you will probably feel anything but equal to those fortunate children, coming from a care centre as you do, quite the opposite!

Yes, it is difficult to see how a government could ever be generous enough to really care for children and see to their needs at each stage of their lives, is it not? But it could really be such a positive investment in time and resources to help these poor, lost children to a healthy future as adults! The prevention is ever more effective than the cure, as they say! Stop the rot before it sets in, is another of those phrases so well used in speech but not so often put into practice! End of quote.

The orphaned children grow in numbers rather than decrease. Cyclical behaviour patterns sadly. We, the good people of the world, must be the guides not man-kind! WE have to break down all of his abusive practices. HE must have no access to these most vulnerable of all, the parentless children. Males killing the offspring of other males is animal behaviour. Our males are so desperately needing the 100% love and attention of a female (any female, it really does not matter, he just sees a substitute mother), that he will kill his own child, or the child of another male, out of jealousy.

Sick, sick behaviour indeed! As though a women will love him after having killed her child! The NARCISSIST must be made to evolve and use SPEECH, that is what these small under developed brains have not learnt to do. They have not been taught about FEELINGS and how to manage emotions and FEELINGS. They have not been taught even to know what their FEELINGS really are! They are locked into a permanent confusion and only Mum will do! Mum and her unconditional love!!!!

Every female in their life will become their Mum. If he confides in `Mum´, your life is as good as forfeit! If he has been able to speak some of his truth to you, he will never allow you to leave. You are now party to some of his secrets and he will silence you permanently rather than let you leave. The reason for the majority of female deaths at the hands of their sentimental partner. These sad and untimely deaths are creating more orphans too.

What a start to life hey? Your father (an orphan himself), who systematically beat and abused you and your mother and then decided to kill your mother in front of you! She wanted to run away with you because she loved you and wanted you to be safe. But NO! If he could not have your mother, then neither would you! Take that! They see a child as a rival sibling, if they can get the child out of the way, they will be an ONLY CHILD and have all Mum´s love to themself!

But Mum has made a different choice, she is prepared to walk away from him! She will choose the child over him, oh, yes! It is not the child who is destroying her life, it is HIM! Her happiness never meant anything to HIM, did it? HE never even knew who she was did he? It was always about HIM, poor, little neglected boy who needs teaching how to become an adult male but push away any who try to care! NARCISSISTS all of them! They punish themselves even as they punish others. Punishing is their only language sadly.

The lost children are not the only members of our society who are sorely neglected. Those with disabilities are still shunned by our modern world. Shame on us all! We must evolve as human beings, we really must! I talk of concentrating on what these individuals CAN do and not what they CANNOT do! It is way past time for their full integration in our regular day to day lives. No more being hidden out of sight, as if an embarrassment to the nation!

WAKE UP! Are you human or are you as man-kind? Man-kind stays ignorant because of his cowardliness! He fears all things that do not reflect his image! Hide everything away that you cannot deal with, keep it all out of sight, pretend it does not exist! We must help as many disabled people into independent living, as would like to be so. Many will be capable of learning all sorts of skills and knowledge. They must be given equal access to education as well, mustn´t they? 

Cycle breaking again but to cycle break it requires someone somewhere to say "NO! THAT IS ENOUGH; NO MORE!" And decide to change direction. Begin to use their own power of conviction, begin thinking for themselves. Become independent from man-kind´s thought patterns, turn your back on all of his inhuman policies. Become human and begin to REALLY care.

There are just far too many of us sitting ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN, all wishing that we could be contributing positively to a better life for ourselves and all others but being totally blocked because we do not look the part or we do not have man-made credentials or we have a great, ugly NARCISSIST blocking our path! This will all come down to private investment and of course, these are more areas that my team would definitely prioritize.

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Do you know any narcissists? Have you experienced life with a narcissist? Can you recognize narcissistic behaviour? It is shocking just how many European males are `BRED and FED´ narcissists. We have got to stop this breeding, we have! It is all about guides for males. Males who they can see themselves reflected in! Realistic reflections, not reflections of kings and famous sports stars! Normal males, average looking males, like they all are in Europe! Nothing special, any of them!

Why such lofty aspirations for yourself? WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? That is what we should demand of every narcissist just as he tries to belittle us each time we try and be ASSERTIVE! Attempting to break our own belief in ourselves! They can succeed given enough time and wasted years, yes, wasted years are the only result of that! It takes some time to see it and admit it to yourself, it does!

I wrote my life story out in words so that I could see an honest reflection and I found exactly what I expected to find. It is the NARCISSISTS in my life who have kept me down, always trying to keep me down in dependency. Break my will to live as a human being. That is where g.o.d. tends to step up to the fore. You have lost all earthly hope of happiness and begin clutching at false hope, invisible hope!

I have been fighting a NARCISSISTIC society all my life and I continue to live in a horrifically NARCISSISTIC modern society. WE eradicate them or they EVOLVE, those are their two choices!

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