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"TO KNOW THE TRUTH, YOU HAVE TO FIND THE TRUTH, ONLY THERE DOES THE TRUTH LIE."

UNDERSTANDING NARCISSISM POSTS 25-28 PAGE 3

MY THIRD PAGE OF POSTS FOLLOWING THE COURSE OF A SENTIMENTAL RELATIONSHIP WITH A MALE NARCISSIST.

Years spent with a male NARCISSIST are like a dog´s years, each one counts for seven!! Every full cycle of NARCISSISTIC abuse could be seen as an episode of your life. Put a collection of episodes back to back and you have got a series! How and why was there ever a second series?

TRAUMA BONDING has been little spoken of outside of professional psychology circles and yet, I found through my own research and personal torture, that I am TRAUMA BONDED to my NARCISSIST male partner. Understanding NARCISSISM is the only way to be able to heal from its traumatic effects on you psychologically, emotionally and physically.

I am on my journey through learning in depth of the psychological condition that is NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER, as my means to recovering my full mental health again. As I move onto this third page of posts, I have just finished my first "SERIES" of this ill-fated relationship. Sadly though, there was a second series!


THE UNDERSTANDING NARCISSISM POSTS NO.25 - 28

POST NO.25 - Published 29th March 2024  (A 14 minute read)

A NARCISSIST IS PARANOID AND HYPER-VIGILANT! - It seems that when you are outdoors with a male NARCISSIST, they are always looking all around them at all times. Always looking for those who may be looking at them or worse still, looking at you! Their greatest fear is their FALSE-SELF being revealed! I get DISCARDED by the male NARCISSIST whilst on holiday which I did not understand as I now do. But for all NARCISSISTIC abuse to carry on, others must enable the NARCISSISTS to do so. We make excuses for their erratic and unreasonable behaviour, when we should be reading the warning signs and making plans to end this relationship straight away. There should be no rough with the smooth; NONE at all! The photo is by Ivan Sabayuki on Unsplash and here is the link for you: A NARCISSIST IS PARANOID AND HYPER-VIGILANT! 

A fat, brown toad sat eyeing up a beetle!
HE WAS NEVER A PRINCE CHARMING REALLY! Photo by Ivan Sabayuki on Unsplash

POST NO.26/IN - Published 5th April 2024 (A 14 minute read)

THE NARCISSIST TRIES TO ESCAPE HIS PAST! - I am now drawing to the end of this first era of my relationship with a male NARCISSIST and I was having to change many of my own parameters to placate my partner. Whilst I was still a long way from knowing any of his truths, those truths were out there looking for him. He was running away from looming disaster and he knew that full well. Sadly, I knew nothing of his REAL situation and continued to concentrate on providing my nephew with his education and well being. But it was not going to be long before it would be all change again and we would have to move on once more. To where now? Wherever we could go and still keep a low profile? We would have to go back to his past some day, wouldn´t we? The photos are of my first two books, lest I forget that I wrote them! The link for today´s post is here: THE NARCISSIST TRIES TO ESCAPE HIS PAST! 
The pink cover of my first book with the trail of camel footprints in the sand.
MY FIRST BOOK!


POST NO.27/N - Published 15th April 2024  (A 15 minute read)

FULLY ENMESHED WITH THE NARCISSIST! - After two and a half years living with a male NARCISSIST, I had unwittingly become fully entangled in the web of lies that were his life. Whilst I was putting all my efforts into this new shared life together as a family, he was investing all his efforts into LOVE-BOMBING me and keeping his truths hidden from me. He was dragging me down further each day, both emotionally, psychologically and financially. In spite of that, he had convinced me that I was probably quite fortunate to have such a caring partner in my life. The "I´ve Got You Babe" scenario and yes, I did have him "BABE" which seemed a lot at that time. What I did not see was that HE had "ME BABE" and I really was my weight in gold and he knew it. The photo today is of a spider´s web taken by Stephen Mease on Unsplash and here is the link for the post: FULLY ENMESHED WITH THE NARCISSIST! 
A beautiful spider´s web with the spider sat in the centre.
THE NARCISSIST SPINS YOU A WEB OF LIES! Photo by Stephen Mease on Unsplash.


POST NO.28/N - Published 21st April 2024  (A 15 minute read)

INFLICTING SOME NARCISSISTIC INJURIES! - Well, maybe it was about time that I gave the male NARCISSIST in my life some cause for suffering and in this post I am rounding up the first phase of my NARCISSISTIC "sentimental" relationship but I am doing this in the emotional sense, in the psychological sense and in the physical sense. Now that I can see this male as he really is, his spell has broken. He can NEVER HOOVER me again. I can now see through him and recognize that he has always been the same, I knew he had a very ugly side but as the flashes of his REAL-SELF were brief, I spent most of my time with Prince Charming. Fully awoken to his and my reality, I just want him and everything connected to him, out of my life permanently. The photo is by Kenny Eliason on Unsplash and shows a rubbish container???!!! Here is today´s link for you: INFLICTING SOME NARCISSISTIC INJURIES! 
A large, black rubbish container placed outdoors, overflowing with rubbish bags.
GOOD RIDDANCE TO BAD RUBBISH! Photo by Kenny Eliason on Unsplash.

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